Throwback: Virgin

Your value much more than rubies
From your lips comes wisdom of ages
Your eyes like doves my love
Your beauty never ending

Its not a matter of looks cause those will fade with age
Its not charm either, that’s full of deceit
Its your God given shine

With you I need no sun
You light up the room
With your smile

You are pure
The definition of a virgin
So clean
Yet no naiveté is in you
You know why you keep yourself holy

You know who who are
Imagine the audacity
Of someone who can say with confidence
This is who I am

Fearfully and wonderfully made
Yet they are all scared of you
You live by grace
Preserving yourself for God’s kingdom

Your special
While the world follows their lusts
You choose to take the difficult path
Imagine the scandal
Someone standing up for purity
For celibacy

Your mind has been transformed
To that of Jesus Christ
You think like Him
Walk in his foot steps
Hold his hand

The spotless bride
That He made worthy

Who wouldn’t die for u
Who can understand your complexity
Your depth
Layers upon layers
It takes a man of understanding to draw that out

Made righteous
Immeasurably beautiful
Intelligence of Daniel
After God’s heart like David
Charitable Dorcus
With the sacrifice of Mary
Delilah without deception
Add the bravery of Esther

All women sing your praises
They can’t even be jealous

You are everyone’s perfect daughter in law
Who are you
Is it possible
How do I become you
I want to

What it is…

When did disapppointment become indifferrence
When did i start to notice your spelling mistakes and not the words you say
When did i love you become, he knows and it doesnt make a difference. He is still the same
When did i miss you become a sad song then silence then words i just say
Stating the obvious
Like i miss the sun on a rainy day
I miss my family everyday
I miss us
We used to talk
You said you felt guilty that we dont
I told you not to, but i meant i dont care what you feel
Because when i left Kenya
You left me
Even before that
When you saw my broken pieces
The filth under my beauty
The stretch marks and scars
You realized i am not who you thought i was
You said you hated me
Then you said you didnt mean it
You said things will never be the same
And i felt it

You cut yourself off from me
Maybe you are just like the rest
Once you discovered that i wouldnt let you touch me
You went out of touch
You realized you couldnt have my flesh and bones
That this spirit wouldnt allow this body to be yours despite its soul
This smile and laugh and voice
Carry words that can be poison bitter or sweet nector bringing healing and hapiness
And you found the latter
That this body is not yours to have
Until you hold my hand forever
And i take yours for eternity

So tough
Thats how its going to be
I have lost confidence in you
My love for you is a hazy memory at the back of my mind
Behind the hate, sorrow and tears
Behind the pain
Underneath the rejection
I didnt even remeber to pray for you this afternoon
Thats how it is